Is what I was listening the other day even I do recall but careless about anime but don't understand why people try to protect it like it's everything to them but my guess it's all these identity that people lose. Example ? No idea but you do see it everyday but because of this issue I'm starting to see images differently again mostly because of people face. If you are asking why am I talking about this but I'm mostly confused as it seem these so called Asian already lost their identity to anime. I'm not sure anymore even this so called pride is just blinding more blinding then these religious group I see in forums everyday. I don't think about religion as much as it's like another way to break the ice.
I too feel like I lost my identity but I feel like it's a good thing that I lost it. More that the fact that I seem to careless now that I'm just a person, user, an unknown object to people nor I'm just confused but I'm kind of glad that winter is coming.
I feel like summer became a murderer and to think what would winter do ?
I kind of feel depressed and without reason for it. I feel tired but I try to convince myself that I'm not sleepy. Even the other I felt good I even ate something that was so great until I my saliva building up. Later after that I puke kind of sick but didn't expect that would happen.
Did you know I'm kind of happy that you spend some time reading this. I kind of feel bad but I did not know many people read this. Mostly with this whole confusion and regret that everyone would see me differently even think I'm crying for attenuation. I hate that feeling so much really but what I hate the most is mind reading.
This girl stayed over these last few days. She was mostly with roommate but she gift me few things when I was at this concert while back. She came in my room to give me burger but at the time I had cat ears headband on because of my bangs. I kind of don't like cutting my hair but I liked this feeling that she was giving me stuff but the sametime I hated even that moment when we were watching a movie and making fun of me when I wanted to see my little pony.
Then I just remember I know how to embarrasses myself without trying. I kind of forgot this random feeling I use to have really even I act more childish with it then care what people thinks. I hate that. I really do hate it when I have to act mature even I know I ain't mature.
Only mature thing is these little life expression I see and deal with but to understand is another thing even all you do is watch. Some people hate it when I said my opinion like if I said some truth and they don't wanna face it.
Someone told me to grow up. Grow up? I do not understand why they tell me this when themselves aren't even grown up. I feel old and I'm only 21 funny isn't.
What would you think if the world change to something like rule 63. Nothing change I bet but if it change would I nor you be the same person you are?
Did you see that movie cowboy vs aliens? I didn't really think it would be kind of good. I really thought it was gonna suck but another think is my mind is smacking me with subject but I think it's funny how I feel like I want to talk to somebody but I do not know how to speak. When I don't wanna talk I just feel like crap later. I find it funny but I hate myself for being this way even when I feel like I need a hug.
Do you ever feel like crap? I mean like I know you do but I kind of mean like your mood changes.
I'm kind of sad today but again I do not know why.
I'm starting to notice that some animations such as anime are all drawn the same it's kind of sad but it's just a cartoon but I can't believe rule 63 adventure time is real.
~ayame
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