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when you feel a cold chill crawling up your spine. I hate when that happens -- a lot. These last few weeks nothing great happen beside few intel I kind of feel like I shouldn't know like an old friend living in the street and knowing most of your friend hate you for being that one person in the group who can think for themselves.
last month I tell you kind of annoyed me. My crush is dating my best friend but at first I didn't care much but it still bugs me. I normally wouldn't let this bug me until I had to be there helping out at some haunted house I didn't want to wear a costume so I was at font selling candy and they were in the back. . . . kissing in the dark mostly I try not to think about it beside talking to people that came by or what. I heard a lot of complain about a girl in a red dress turn out to be a real ghost I kind of find it funny as I go "If you see a girl in a red dress that aren't ours." later on the night my friend thats dating my crush screw up her leg. Good for her I kind of was glad but again being ignore the whole night sounds like school all over again. Turn out the next day it closed because someone stole money good thing I wasn't there since I was doing project nor something to keep me busy.
Lately I been drawing a lot I kind of wanted to draw my own comic but I feel stupid on trying. I haven't drawn anything since manga club but I was bored and not many people liked my sketches or drawing. Artist mankind wasn't much help even the whole anime convention I with too with some artist always makes me jealous. . . Thinking about it now and then kinds of annoyed me. Lately I kind of feel like I improved but I don't feel like I am oh by the way my e-mail got hacked. I kind of feel piss off because person hijack it for sell. I got it back but I can't trust people anymore. Scary when that happens oh and move my room around. I kind of feel awkward about it but I didn't care much. I made a fake poster place it on my wall just giggles.
I kind of learn how to draw lolis but I used some of the techniques on my other drawings I kind of feel I did very good then before but it seem I can't color since I can't erase the red pencil markings -- bummer.
Oh! I forgot to mention someone said "I have a picture of you sleeping on the couch." I didn't believe them until they send it to me it turn out to be someone else. I still have it but I kind of wonder why they think it was me ?
For some reason I thought about that event when I actually had few drinks (( Not sure I mention that the last entry ))
I'll tell it anyway. Friend of mine invited me to this party since her friend are gay so I was like okay well anyway person has lots of pet I kind of feel shaken with some of the snakes but later on the night this guy that has like two sons running around and I are talking about personal life but offer me a drink. He was like "Would you like some Apple cider its very sweet." I heard sweet I was game few glasses we kind of got tipsy and I felt my head so heavy he was complaining how we finish six bottles I don't drink but I do recall him being a bit touchy and flirty side not he made me touch one of his pet names. I feel abit scared at the time but I did pass out on the couch after that. I did remember hearing voices saying "Is it okay I could take advantage of your friend" and another voice saying "I don't care." but when I woke up I was still on the couch hearing two guys kissing and my friend just staring at me we kind of left that morning. some party huh and story too. I'm kind of glad I didn't get touch that night since my friend told me he passed out on his bed I didn't want to think what would happen any who !!
I'm trying to recall things that happen last month and today that I feel its very important to highlight -- I don't think I spell it right anyway
I don't feel like I'm alive but a sleep most of the time. I don't think I make much sense anymore since a lot of things never do. OH!! I got into an argument about the silent hill movie with a friend suck they don't know s**t about films but sad with its goes with opinion base it doesn't matter to them even the movie did suck but the whole "If you're a silent hill fan you're gonna like it." when I was like "Name a movie thats base on a game that turn out good. You know damn well they all sucks !" It seem I can't be honest without playing the bad guy damn.
well thats all I feel like talking about lately
~ayame