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Work was lame, but it's my Friday so its cool. I'm still feeling great! However, my roommate has been miserable. She wanted to have a serious talk about how we've been living. Honestly, I've been having the time of my life, but she thinks we could do things better. And before I get really into this, I just want to say that this is nothing about the place we live in or how we provide and pay for rent. All of those things are fine. She told me that things aren't the way she wants them to be. She mentioned the times when we were talking about how things were going to be when we moved together, but that nothing's happening. I get what she's saying, but how long ago did we talk about it? I'm pretty sure we were like 17. I'm a different person now, I do not think the same or even feel the same about things compared to when I was 17. She has to let go of our old fantasies and realize that we're older and there are things that we need to do. Things can't be fun and silly all of the time. And its not like I was having fun with them anyway! I specifically remember writing an entry about how my friends can be shitty friends. But all of a sudden s**t hits the fan when I don't wanna do what they want or just hang around with them while they do whatever they want. And then it got to a point where I felt like I couldn't even have an interesting conversation with them. All the stuff they liked was just dumb stuff that was supposed to be funny, but its just not. And they have no interests in their futures whatsoever! Not to mention they can just be stereo typically vapid women. Of course I got bored and annoyed with them! But what did I do? I stuck around, held my tongue, just went with the flow. Now that I refuse to do that any longer, she wants to sit me down and have a talk. Suddenly, I'm the different person, I'm the one that's acting weird, I don't ******** think so. Yes, I changed. I don't think its a bad thing. I've been happier since the change, and not because I have suppressed feelings. I've simply been satisfied with my life at the moment. I will admit, it was wrong of me not to talk to her sooner. I noticed that she didn't look happy and I didn't bother to ask her. I shouldn't neglect her that way. So I'll try not to get caught up in lolli land the way I did, with all the fun and false hope and carefree feel. She will come first.

Sincerely,
Kat =^.^=