Its finally October and I'm really excited for Halloween. I mean, it'll definitely be different, there isn't anyone to party with, but I'm sure I can find some other way to be festive. But, its also getting close to the end of the year, and all of my plans have fallen apart again. I guess I have to learn that something will always get in the way and I just have to be strong enough to get through it and find a way to keep going. Something like that is always going to be hard for someone like me, but I'm still working on it everyday. I've learned a lot about my mind and why I feel the way I do most of the time, and the solution is just to simply eliminate all the things that make me feel bad for no real reason at all. That could be objects that make me remember things, or people who just don't have anything nice to say. Its basically like cleaning out all the junk that's taking up space. Its hard to say goodbye to people I've spent so much time with, but I HAVE to do what's best for me. Throwing things away is even harder. I love all the stuff I work hard to buy and all the gifts I've been given. But I have to let those memories go. For the most part, I feel the best I've felt in a long time. I hope that my hard work will pay off soon as well.
Sincerely,
Kat
View User's Journal
The Lost Story of Kat
 |
