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Again, I don't know how many times I've said this now, but holy s**t I can't believe this website is still up haha.
Throughout the years of my adolescence, I was in a constant state of woe is me, and I feel like everyone is like that at first. It isn't until later that you begin to realize what really matters to you, and people become more and more disposable I guess. In some cases, there is usually someone that keeps us going, but lately I've been noticing people take more time for themselves. I've had more alone time than anyone else I know lol but that's over now, and with every day comes a new lesson and a new idea. I won't lie, its definitely discouraging when most of the population is glued to their screens, but I'm still hoping people will realize they are literally filling their lives with nothingness.
Like, the internet, is nothing. Its not a tangible thing that will affect you unless you let it, and boy do people let it. And as unlikely as it seems, I'm hoping that one day people will wake up and ask themselves "Am I really using my opportunities to their fullest extent or am I bullshitting a little too much?" Of course people aren't going to give it that much thought lol at least not for awhile. I have definitely learned how to see toxic patterns in a person's behavior and it's more or less a choice to be who you want. A lot of people love to blame people for who they are and what they do, but at the end of the day, it was you who made the decisions and carried out the action. And there is nothing more pathetic than a coward who can't own up to their s**t in my opinion.
Aside from living in this self destructive society, things are going as well as they could go. College is so fun, totally paying for it for the rest of my life, but that's nothing new. No one's perfect, but my husband is perfect for me. Work sucks, but that's given, and for once in my life, I feel like a normal person.

Sincerely,
Kalasia