Well it's a little passed midnight and I don't think I'm going to get much sleep. Not really anything new, I don't sleep much anymore. Earlier tonight, I drove around a bit. For some reason, driving helps me clear my head. Probably because I have to focus on not crashing my mom's car, but it helps me forget everything else for awhile. I need more things to help me forget. But there really isn't anything I could use that's safe or compatible with my morals. I'm starting to think I should just be ridiculously daring about everything from now on. Like, the worst that could happen is that I'd die, but that's not much of an issue for me. Life is pretty much whatever right now, so its like whatever happens, happens. Something about tonight just makes me think of everything that has ever happened to me. Someone special to me had said not to waste time thinking of the past, but I felt like we both knew that was easier said than done. Since I won't be sleeping much tonight, maybe I should try to think of all the good things and maybe I won't feel what I'm feeling. What am I feeling exactly? I wish I knew. Right now, it kind of feels like nothing.
Sincerely,
Kat.
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