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funny how we get into this situation, indeed.
funny how this is the role you're choosing to play.

realize you're why we're at where we are now.
think about what you've been doing to me as of late,
i'm sure you'll come up with "nothing" to delve a little deeper, please.

you claim you'll love and support me to the very end,
but you couldn't support me through anything in my life even if you wanted to.
think about it. realize its true.
there's not a supportive bone in your body..

you don't care about the things i've grown interested in.
that's fine. but if you don't care, you automatically don't support them.
you can't be supportive if you don't care about what someone is doing.

whatever your warped perception of love is,
i'm not quite sure i can handle it. i honestly feel like you're trying to mold me into something for yourself, but i can't do that.

you'll probably read this and either scoff and say everything i'm perceiving is completely wrong,
but really, think about it.
you know there is truth behind this wall of text.

if the things i do are disturbing, don't stick around and watch me get hit by the train.
i've been picking myself up for the last few months, while you've been handling your crippling homesickness, delving into your classes, and proving me right every, single. day.

i love you, you're my best friend
but things aren't like they were, and they'll never be the same.
a lot has changed. within myself and within you.
you can fight that you haven't changed all you want, but each time we talk you become an even more distant stranger. it's worrisome, but i can't fix that because it only makes me want to pull away even more.

you can sit there and continue shaking your head,
watch me disappear as the days continue to wind,
or you can really try to be a supportive person and realize that the things i'm doing don't follow any sort of rule book you've been taught.
things aren't black and white, and while i often find myself scared and confused in the situation you are often referring to, we are in love, point blank. there is no "lack of commitment" there is a "lack of title."

not everything is as simple as you think it is.
i wish you would realize that, considering you're delving into a major and career where you'll often be faced with things that aren't black and white.

remember, i still care about you.
but i can't be around your patronizing, judgmental eye anymore.
that's not a best friend.