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I miss the feeling of you missing me

Isn't it crazy how quickly time slips by, and suddenly you were someone I knew and loved nearly four years ago?
I think of you from time to time, about how things went wrong, about how I loved you so blindly, how I would have given you any and everything you ever dreamed of.

Why are we so insistent on taking things for granted?
The good people in our life, the good times, our youth, our free time, everything.

I would give anything to go back to those days where I believed in love so completely,
Because a light as gone out in my life, and I can't seem to find the replacement bulb,
And I'm left here in the dark, thinking of you and my other exes, and its a tiny bit stressful.

Do you ever think of me, and really wonder why we went our separate ways?
Were we both equally bad to each other, or was it just you?
Was it just me, am I rude for not even considering that notion, that I was the downfall of everything?

Let's not be naive, though, you were a liar and a cheater and you were young and insecure and afraid because your future didn't feel as bright as you'd hoped it would have been.

We're so different now, I feel like I could never connect with you in the way I used to.
But isn't that what happens? We go our separate ways, experience completely different things, and hopefully think fondly of each other from time to time.

I can't help but wonder if you hate me for leaving you crying on the phone, begging for another chance to show me you were the right kind of guy.