Today I was cleaning my room because I came home early from school because I was not feeling good...I was !!SICK!! Well anyway while cleaning I finally found my cellphone...Well I charged it up and turned it on...I started to look through things on there so I could delete some of the really old stuff to make more room...Well I got so sad when I reread all the old text messages that me and Parker(shawn) had sent eachother...It just really upset me to think that I was so in love with him and I started remembering when I first heard the news about him cheating on me...And I know that I am suppose to be over him but...I still love him...Everytime I was with him he made me feel special...Like I was...Loved...Scrolling through my old caller list and deleting people I dont talk to anymore...I came across his...And I just stop...My eyes tear up and I just started to cry...Slowly remembering all the memories we had together and all the time we have spent together...Well I just skipped over his name and kept going on...Still teary...I came across Tim's name and that just broke my heart...I dropped the phone and I just sat there on the floor and cried...Well if you dont know who Tim is then you might want to go back and read some of my earlier entries...Anyway...I heard the phone ring after maybe 15 mins...One of my friends called me because I went home early and I told them about my problems and they told me that I have to get over them...I told her that I just cant do it...That I still love them and I dont think I could go on any longer...But to sum it all up for yaw...I was depressed and suicidal...
 kris767 · Tue Mar 22, 2005 @ 01:53am · 0 Comments |
