So, I want to talk a little more about love since its still an interesting subject. Let me just start by telling a little story. There was this girl. She was a normal girl, born healthy, just regular average child. But her parents were very passive aggressive people. They did not express their anger or their passion. But they also were a very nice looking couple. They could pass off as completely contempt with whatever it is that's happening. So inevitably, the couple's children picked up these characteristics. So with two older brothers, this girl grows up with this family not knowing much about expression and feeling. Now, as the girl gets older, she begins going to school. The other kids seemed so reckless and dramatic to the girl, and knowing nothing of emotion, she doesn't intend to purposefully engage with anyone, but she won't push anyone away either. In elementary, she's meets a girl just like her. Prone to emotion, only thinking about the good things she knows, not digging too deep. So they become best friends and continue to ignore the things they feel, or are starting to feel. Those two girls stayed together for years, but in high school they were forced to separate. This girl had a lot of "friends", don't get me wrong. But she didn't really care about that, it didn't really seem like anything special for her, except for with that one girl. But in high school, there was another girl who approached her, They began to talk, but the girl didn't really think much of it, but this other girl would talk to her everyday, they were always laughing and making jokes so you would think they were good friends. But the girl didn't really think of it that way. She was just sort of going with the flow. Meanwhile, the other girl has practically claimed her as a best friend and wouldn't want to do a thing without her. She really loved her. Years went on, their friends met each other and it became a small group of girls. Through all of the journeys and adventures they had, the girl could see that she does not have the same emotional energy as the other girls, or people in general. This began to worry the girl, but she chose to ignore it. No one knows why she won't confront anyone or mention it, or even ask her parents. She just went on this way. Eventually she lost all of her friends. She stopped speaking to anyone. All she does is sit in her house keeping herself occupied with art and music and cultural things. These things may give her some kind of euphoria, who knows? My question is how could that girl have gone all that time not loving the people who clearly loved her? Is it something with her brain? Are her parents to blame? What is to become of her now?
At first, I didn't think love was real. But when I realized that this girl truly could not feel love, I knew it was real. I knew that I had already had it when I thought it was missing the whole time. But I was just being selfish and I see now that I wanted some perfect, fictional, fairy tale love lol! That's never gonna happen, duh. But there are other kinds of love too. Like family love and friendly love. I have met some people that have said they don't believe in men and women being friends, or they've said that there's no such thing as friendly love. I think it sucks they feel that way honestly. There's a lot of people I can say I love. Now, romantic love is still a bit iffy. My bf and I are doing great, its really hard to keep things together in my head sometimes, but he usually eases that for me flawlessly lol so I think we're getting there. It is definitely fun and exciting like people have said lol and I only have the intention of being a good girlfriend and eventual wife so, what could go wrong? lol Love is a silly, crazy, hectic emotion. People have murdered because of love. Its so powerful when you think about it.
Sincerely.
Kalasia
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