So today, I had a bit of an eye opener. I realized that sometimes I'm just too hard on myself and I have to stop overthinking everything. I let myself free today and I had a great time! Even feelings that I didn't think I could have anymore surfaced! I feel alive again. Maybe that's what it was I've been so confused about. All the things that used to make me feel alive never belonged with me. The people I was with, the things we were doing, none of that s**t made me happy. It only made me question myself more and more everyday. But today, I saw that I can really make someone happy, make someone want to spend time with me without having to give any of myself to them. It felt like freedom, but it was much more than that. It was true emotion, not stemmed from the past, but from the present. This whole time, I've been telling myself that fate won't allow this kind of euphoria. Oh how wrong I was.
Sincerely,
Kalasia
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