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And you got me like, "Oh, what you want from me?"
And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high.

And there you went, out the door again.
I swear, when you're away I really don't care.

But having you here just makes me a different person.
When we're talking about your family,
When you tell me about how you and your dad used to box
Or how your brother doesn't understand the black side of his culture

I swear, sometimes you just make me feel like this is something more than it is when we're together.
When you just hold me, and when you kiss me softly
When you just pause time for a few hours, so that everything stand still...

I don't love you. I can't allow myself to, Brogan,
But sometimes, when its been a month since I've seen you, and then you walk out of the car and pull me in close,
When you smile at me and insist on holding my hand while we walk to the couch,
When you just want to hold each other, and put off having sex for as long as possible,
Only then do I think that I could fall in love with you, if I wanted to.

You do things to me I really can't explain, they're not the typical signs of love that plague me, which is why I know that I'm not in love with you.

But I do have so much love for you, and I hope to continue spending my time with you.

You're the only one I want, and I mean that.

I'll be honest, I don't expect you to come see me Friday during the day,
But I really hope you do.
I could spend the rest of my days doing this with you, honestly,
This is enough for me.
In fact, I think its perfect for me.

We have a commitment without actually being committed to each other.
I'm free to say I'm single, to talk to other people,
But we both know we're only sleeping with each other
We're only laying down and cuddling with each other.

I realize why I haven't been able to break this off when other people pose offers to date me, to make things more serious and official.
I don't want serious, official, or any traditional sense of dating.

I like us.
We fit together perfectly.
Thank you, for everything.
As always, our rare encounters teach me so much.

Don't you stop loving me, quit loving me
Just start loving me.