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seeing you for the first time in over a month last night was really nice

you held me so tight when you stepped out of your car and i just wanted to melt into you.

we both know this is something that's gonna end sooner than later,
but i just appreciate the way you've let me ease myself into whatever this is.

and i know its not love,
and i was thinking to myself, "was it really worth it if no one gets hurt?"

but i might miss you a little more than i anticipated once you're off on your next adventure.

you and i didn't get to know each other in a traditional sense,
this was supposed to strictly be a hook up that we could rely on.

and i know we both broke those rules from time to time,
with the "i miss yous" and your drunk snaps

you have helped me through a time i didn't realize i would need someone for.
i don't know if i did anything like that for you, but i appreciate everything.

As selfish as i want to be, as badly as i want to find some way to make you stay,
I know you're gonna do these amazing and great things.

I was hesitant about seeing you last night, I'm not sure why.

I don't love you. You aren't going to be someone I cry over as these things come to a close.

For all I know, last night was our last night and to be frank, I'm okay with that,
Aside from the fact that I want to melt in your arms a few more times.

Easily the easiest "heart break" I'll ever have to endure,
I guess you and I just moved so effortlessly in that regard.

I'll miss you, Brogan, you beautiful, brilliant boy.