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So intoxicating.
So exhilarating.

it's funny how much can change in a mere 3 years.

But things are better now than they've been in a long time.

John and I are going to start saving up for a house,
but we're going to take our time with it.

I'm really excited about this, and I think he is too.

And I'm going to see Bri in May, for my 21st birthday
And I'm going to Philly in March, to see Ariana Grande with John
And we'll go to NYC for a day. I'm so excited.

I have a few days off in December also, so that's just around the corner.
I don't even know what I'll do with that time off.

Can I just take a moment to say how grateful I am that things played out the way they did?

The story of John and I was one I was never certain of,
Something that made me nervous because I knew I had no right to care as much as I did about him.

But I'll never forget the first time he told me he loved me.
We were nothing more than friends and I was with Randy.

We weren't even really flirting hard at that point.
We were just having a casual conversation, and I'm pretty sure he was drunk.
But he said it. He said "I love you."

And my heart raced in excitement and in fear.
Randy was sitting right beside me,
and I didn't want him to see it because I didn't want him to tell me I couldn't be friends with John anymore.

I can't wait to see where this love goes, now that its out in the open and the world knows it.