For some reason, I always stick with a group of people. Before, it was the faithful 5. But ever since the faithful 5 fell apart, I felt like I needed just one person to be my good and only friend. I tried that, I really did. But what I didn't understand is that people aren't like me. There was never anyone that grew up with no friends and no one to talk to, and I always thought that'd I'd meet someone that was always alone like I was. But no, this person that did end up being my friend was admired by everyone and I guess I was pretty jealous. So what happened was that I thought "If I can't have her, no one can." But of course, there was no way her other friends would just let me take her. So instead of going into war, I decided to make peace with her other friends, and so I said "Let's all be great friends and do everything together." So now, I have another group. I'm not really sure if its 3 or 4 of us right now, but that'll be cleared up later. But its very different from the faithful 5. With them, I was pretty much the young one that needed to be looked after because I didn't know anything and I was pretty pathetic. But now, I feel like I have to be the guardian for the current group. Not because I think they're pathetic or anything like that. But because I love them so much, I would hate it to have anything happen to them. So I try my hardest to protect them. And when I can't protect them, I try to teach them to protect themselves. Its definitely not easy, but it'll be worth it in the long run I hope. I can't be the only one that feels like a guardian for a few people. So thanks to all the guardians out there. The world is somewhat better with you around.
Sincerely,
Kat =^.^=
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