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Goodness gracious I haven't felt this anxious about anything in such a long time,
I'm meeting Randy's mother for the very first time and I can't help but feel like somehow I'm going to mess this up.

Its like either way I'm gonna lose because they don't have the best relationship,
So either he's gonna be snide towards me for getting along with her,
Or be slightly offended because I don't particularly care for her.

Either way I'm just hoping to make a good impression on his entire family on that side,
Especially since he doesn't even see them very often.

I think Randy really underestimates the importance of family in my heart,
which is rather unfortunate because it really is essential to me.

I can't believe that July is almost over.
In about a month I'll be back in school.

I'll be done with class every day by 10:30 in the morning so I can keep working both jobs.
Dedication to excellence seems to have become a goal of mine,
Not only is my hard work noticeable at work,
But I plan on making it a beacon in my school life as well.

All I want to do is prove that I'm worth every letter of recommendation I seek,
That I'm capable of every internship I apply for,
That I'm going to have a beautiful future because the plans I have don't allow me to settle for anything less.

I want a beautiful life for me and my future husband,
And seeing as though I see him every single day and smile in his beautiful face,
I don't ever want him to be burdened with struggle,
Especially once we start a beautiful family together.

He's even willing to go back to school in the spring so that we don't have to worry about anything later in life.
The fact that he came to this conclusion with not even the slightest push from me makes me so incredibly happy.

It just proves that he's also willing to do whatever's necessary for our future together.

Determination to live a beautiful life, to make life easier for one another.

Honestly, something like that is what makes life so beautiful.

I'm incredibly lucky to have fallen in love with this guy.
Whatever great things I've put into the universe, they truly were returned to me the moment we started dating.