Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Sing a song to yourself tonight
Dim the lights, soothe your heart as you lay by his side.

The weekend was so nice,
Being home, its a great place to be.
Placed the leis on my Grammy and Grand-daddy's tombstone.
Feels a bit more... of a dream that she's really gone, honestly.
A month later and its still really, really hard to believe.

I guess I'm kind of like her children,
I never really thought she could pass away.
Maybe that's just because we want so badly to believe people are invincible,
Or maybe its because we never really want to live without a mom or grandmother.

I'm not really sure what the reason may be.
It's been hard though, definitely a hard month.

I just miss her so much,
I don't think the missing her will ever go away.
I think of him just as often as I'm sure I will think of her.

In the very least, this has taught me that my family really is the only reliable thing I have.
That's why I can't let it fall apart.

The immediate folks, we seem pretty good.
But the people I have to reach a little farther for to say hello to, I'm not so sure how that'll go.

Doesn't help that there are minutes that put a barrier on speaking to the people you love.
Doesn't help that they can't stand the sight of one another.
Doesn't help, but we have to work with the hand that's dealt to us.

I don't plan on folding so easily.

It feels weird to think I'm already preferring being so far away from home though.
My apartment is already starting to feel like home, regardless of the never-ending complaints that come from whoever wants the damn place to be cleaned, who wants to schedule "house meetings" and the like.

Living with three strangers definitely wasn't an idea I had ever planned on enjoying,
At least next year it'll just be me and Luis.
We might actually get a house with Robyn and Ana though.
That'd be nice, I think.

I don't really know either of them well enough to decide if I'd be good at living with them.

But that's just another set of waters to test out.

Heading back home this weekend to visit the surgeon about getting my gall bladder removed and such.
A lot of my family has been asking for me to keep the damn organ.
I think I may ask. It'd be kinda cool.

Then Luis and I are gonna go see K-Dot and probably have Nikki's birthday dinner while I'm there as well.

Bought some new games, I've been re-cracking out on Pokemon and Harvest Moon lately.
Luis said he'd buy me a 3Ds for Christmas O:
That'd be ******** dope.

I really can't wait for the new Animal Crossing to come out in May. I've been dying for it for like a few years it seems.
In this one you get to be the mayor of the town @___@;

I feel as if some things never really change.

Lately I've been thinking about Nana and Ai Yazawa lately.
I wish she'd resume writing it. I really, really do.
I love Nana so much, even all the memories it brings to me.
I remember a lot of good times with all of Yazawa's works that I really got to know and love.
From Parakiss to Gokinjo.
If I could, I'd try to read them all.
Unfortunately, learning the Japanese languages isn't something I really intend on doing for a long, long time.

I do want to learn a great deal of languages though.
Spanish, Italian, French, Chinese.
The more languages I know, the better things will be.

I really, really miss Tia Alinita. :/
I miss Peru in general.
I miss how carefree and fun it was.
I miss the exhilarating adventure in Macchu Picchu and Cuzco.
I definitely have to go back sometime.

I also really, really want to see the other world wonders.
Luis and I are planning on going to Egypt when I graduate from college as that big adventure.
We still have to go to Mexico, too. Something to conquer that's so close by.
As well as New York. The New Yorkers are trying to drag us up there anyway. I think it'd be nice, the last time I was there my grand-daddy was still alive, which is weird to think about.

I have a quiz in a few hours. I should really go to sleep so I can watch the video on the argument as to how the world is not flat, go over my notes again, and get a shower so I can look presentable since I'll be on campus til about 5 or so. -___- Oh, the busy day that is Tuesday is really not something I think I'll love.

And then Thursday I have my first chemistry exam. I think I'll do just fine in that though, I got an A on the last homework assignment.

Both of my tutors have proven to be useless so far. My Spanish tutor tells me I should just cheat ._. and my chemistry tutor just looks in the back of the book for the answers to my questions. I could do that. I feel as though I'm giving them both an hour of my time I could spend doing something much better.

Tomorow Luis and I are getting back into the Intensity workout habit. As well as making dinner instead of eating a cookout tray. Not exactly the healthiest thing you can indulge yourself on. I'm pretty happy, when I do cook it is actually a pretty healthy, delicious meal.

I've gotten pretty good at making Chicken Alfredo.
I think we might have to make some Chicken Tortilla Soup sometime this week. I still have some tortilla chips so I'm not gonna bother with the shredded, fried tortillas xp I always burn myself on those so its less than desirable to do.
Then we can also make some spaghetti and a salad.
And we can always make a stir fry too, I think we might do that soon since I have tons of veggies waiting to be devoured. (:

Still need to go pay my rent. ._. ******** up there.
Sigh, so much to do.
But most importantly sleep.

I think I've updated you enough, you should do me the same.