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finally brought myself to go visit you,
finally brought myself to see the car accident just waiting for me to walk past
finally saw a glimpse of the reality i was merely imagining.

you're so fragile now,
so tiny, it's scary
it was only a month or two ago when i last saw you,
yeah... you had oxygen, but you didn't look like you were fading away before my eyes.

how do you manage to still be so small-voiced and sweet,
though you're in so much pain and just trying to escape from the prision of wires and doctors and nurses intruding on you and your privacy?
how do you manage to recall things from so long ago, though they say as you get older your memories pass by you?

how do you still remain so firm in your beliefs, though you're scared out of your mind?

you're such a brave soul.
and i'm so afraid to leave you all alone,
in the big room, much better than the one before,
but they don't bring ya water til we ask three times
and i just want you to be well hydrated and happy.

when your voice got even quieter,
and you were so scared that you'd be in there til wednesday,
my heart broke just like yours.
but i'll be back saturday and we'll make you something worth eating

and hopefully everyone else sticks around til you talk your way into exhaustion
so you can sleep easy and not feel all alone. :/

i miss you already, grammy
gotta go back soon.
saturday hurry up.