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I don't even know why I get excited about you coming.
I don't know why.
I fight so hard to just avoid it,

Because I know you.
And I know you'll never actually come unless your mama drags you up here.
Cause you're such a ******** mama's boy right?

Seriously though,
I wish you had just canceled on me any day before the day of.
I was so excited, so ready,
So happy to know you'd be here soon.

And idk why this time feels different,
Generally I don't really care or react or get so frazzled over it.

But seriously this time it's like I'm fighting back all of these ******** emotions.
I hope I can just easily blame it on the birth control cause I never cry over you.

This is all such bullshit,
Why do things have to be so ******** stupid.
Why do you have to be so ******** stupid.

I'm ready for school to start so I'll never be around and I can finally figure everything out.

I ******** hate people so ******** much.

And its not like I can even talk to anyone about anything because my best ******** friend is all MIA
and you're all hi im busy washing ******** cars for my ******** mom
and everyone else is just so ******** worthless.

God scratch that - everyone in general is ******** worthless.