This past year has actually been quite splendid. I don't really remember the last time I was on gaia. I feel like I actually have changed though. At least since my last birthday.
It's official; I've been on gaia for almost exactly three years. I'm about two weeks over the anniversary. But who really gives a s**t? I still can't believe Mehdy is dead. I don't really want to talk to much about it because 1. I barely knew him and 2. In "Looking For Alaska" it really pissed off Pudge and Colonel when people who barely knew Alaska freaked out over her death. I don't want to be that person... God I never want to be that person.
So ********! I made it through another year. And I still come crawling back to this place.
Mmmm tired. And depressed. I don't feel like celebrating less than twenty-four hours after someone I know died. I feel a bit better though. It's amazing how shitty I actually felt because of Mehdy. It still amazes me that he's gone. It's all really a dream right? One big conspiracy?
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Mostly ramblings to myself. You needn't pay attention. It's just, posting stuff like this helps keep my sanity, just a little bit. It helps solidify what I feel and what I'm doing. I like writing as well. So maybe when I look back someday I won't for
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