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bah fags.
so so so annoying.
it kind of kills me he even bothered.
obviously i'm not going to pretend this didn't happen.
obviously he's not going to suddenly be ready to back up all his claims.
why am i even remotely hurt by this?

probably because of what he said.
i guess it's the way he comes off, i put too much faith in him.
but the things he say are hard not to believe.

"i've been yours." it WAS possible, we liked each other on and off for so long.
"talkkkkin to mah girlfraaaand, YOU." yeahhh cause we DID establish we were dating, right? apparently you forgot.

and then to even ask for THAAAT. but you're suddenly afraid of commitment?

good god, i hate people.
and yet i keep putting so much faith into them, it's stupid.

i need to be a bit more careful.
maybe i'm just slowly becoming more jaded, letting go was so much easier and better than trying to hold on, so you fall. into the waters.
the black waters, ripple effect. gone.
down you'll crash, i'll leave the docks.

freedom.
so sweet, indeed.
but as the quote says,
still in shackles we remain.

so if i walk too far away,
do you get to rise from the waters?

very plausible.
detatch from f** #1, i can breathe fresh air,
not try to become a fish, not adapt gills, and certainly, i don't die.

pulled frm the dark waters, i was. thank goodness.

so, if i stick around, ripple effect...
do i go crashing down with you?

very plausible.
hold onto f** #1, death surrounds.
water in lungs.
losing consciousness.

obviously the better of the two was the first mentioned.
and yet i chose the latter for so very long.
disgusting.

and you're f** #3.
i'm sick of all the stupid people i keep dating.

i need a good person.
good soul. good heart.
nothing else matters.

more importantly?
i need myself. single lifeee. mmmmm. (:

******** mmbang,
******** baseball playa,
******** errythang that deals with you.
CAUSE YOU SUCKSUCKSUCK. fact.

btw bri you're sleeping and i lavaaa you.
less than a month till i see you : D