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Well not really but I do have this deck of cards I keep messing with them like cutting it too side them... I notice I get bored easy.

Well the other day I think Mods don't like me at all even I have a question they don't even answer it. It does make me think but I just don't think but think how much i have too pay again and again to get the signature back. I find it odd when the picture isn't over 500x500 but they say it is?

In different matters I feel new even some people are improved to my ability in some level but I do feel weak even some people say I'm strong. I don't really understand myself that much anymore but hey it's like I guess even I do have a clone on Gaia sadly s/he my opposite. My head still hurts but I really don't care much too it now but thinking about nights after nights it upsetting you know. I believe my apartment is hunted but I think it's myself that would believe that.
I might just lay down but I hate the thought about it but now I'm gonna eat something and get ready for a meeting with this person that needed to talk to me. Hey do you have that feeling you are being watch? I do but mostly cause it's my illness that somewhat does that but it meanly cause I think too much... I hate that feeling and having to shed tears but not knowing why. I know there others that are and aren't like me that has these problems but I do feel like s**t having to deal with it. Like there a hold in your stomach but it's starting to get cold and colder like a bad feeling... I get those alot for some reason but I guess it something about me I just deal with--

Did I told you I gone out with this guy that one time. Yeah... it didn't turn out well but I did get a free meal but hate him. I mean he was doing that mind reading but he was wrong in everyday. Funny at that time someone online judge me saying I have self-esteem problems. It's just makes my day bit fun between they don't really know me nor understand how I work.
If he was like my ex-best friend then that would be fun even he reminds me of Dr. G. House... I still can't believe we're not friends thinking about how clever he is and smart on how people are

Enough!! why are you even reading this? I bet you want to know more about me?? Well-- no stop reading this please don't I don't want you to read this part please!!!

**Do Not Read This**

Sorry this is my personally thoughts here mostly cause I been lying to everyone. I do make my own art but I don't like drawing as much on the computer then I draw on paper. I love drawing but on paper but doing this computer drawing annoys me cause I'm doing it with a mouse. Do you have any idea how hard it is!! I get very mad cause I have to keep doing it over and over... by the way I'm using MS paint so go finger.
I'm glad people like my art work but not liking my horrible sing does make me go bummer really. I should just do BGM but that's very hard and re-writing lyric are too fussiness galsaaskfalksjf!! I don't know anymore so it's all just down and under form here.

~Ayame