Mood: Bitter.
Song: You've Got Love - Florence + The Machine
Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air,
I know I can count on you.
Last night kinda sucked.
First time I cried in front of Jasmine, first time in front of Callie,
I really don't know why I cried.
I was just talking to Bri,
We weren't even talking about anything bad.
Poor thing thought it was her that made me cry,
But I can't explain it.
I know I told her I was scared I was going to lose her.
That's something I've kept to myself for a really long time,
But I guess when Jasmine asked me,
"What would you do if Bri stopped being your friend forever?"
It look me by shock.
Because even if it's been in the back of my head,
I've never needed to dissect whatever it was I thought.
Simply put, I banished it to the back of my head because I know it's silly.
But when someone other than myself asked?
I got scared.
Because that meant there was a real possibility.
I almost lost you forever over Erik.
I almost lost you forever.
Just say that gives me goose bumps.
Chills and I even shiver a little.
Ten more days,
I can't wait to have you in my sight.
Close enough to whisper secrets,
Close enough to see eye to eye,
Even though I'll have to look up to see yours (:
You know, not a day goes by where I'm not thankful for everything you've done for me over the years.
Without you, I'm not sure where I'd be.
You're what completes me.
I'm sorry for crying,
And acting like a big baby.
Callie told me that I made her cry because I was crying
That made me feel worse,
and it reminds me of eighth grade.
Maybe seventh.
We went to an old people home,
We sang them songs.
And there was this adorable old lady crying
and she made me cry.
And bah bah bahhh
People comforted me,
and then they cried also.
Also,
I'm a bad girlfriend.
Because I won't buy my girlfriend cigarettes,
But Callie?
She's a GREAT friend.
Because she'll buy my girlfriend cigarettes.
Haha.
Wow.
I'm terrible because I don't want her to get lung cancer,
But her "Wifey" is so amazing because she doesn't care either way.
(:
******** the world and all it's becoming!
I hate mice.
Hate hate hate.
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Missa Defunctorum
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