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i made it through thursday. not hard really. it was the fire truck day and who in there right mind would show up after a fight when they had been in one.
i had to wear my hair down to hide the swelling and redness.
i also had made an extra appointment with my therapist. he knew already before i came in. i guess clients had come in and said that woman at the park was knocked down and punched. it is all over. i think it is all sensationalism and that no one actually cares, save a few about me. the thing that bothers me the most is that the people who should care like my superiors are just blowing it off.
friday and saturaday were not good. sunday was better.

well the girl who punched me was there today. she did not stay long, which is good.
i went and told the site supervisor that she was there. he said there was nothing to do. the police did not want my statement so she is not on the top secret list of names of the people involved. if they come they will only be given a warning. it was pretty awful after that, for me. i told the supervisor that i would not deal with her. i had no malice towards her but i would not put myself into a situation with her. he reminded me i was to not leave the park trying to help.
on the whole it was a quite day.
i just did not want to be there. my heart started to flutter and i feel ill. everything kind of swayed around. small panic attacks. i just wanted to cry, leave and go hide.
i am not brave. i am scared. i do not feel safe.
i am not brave