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lets just ignore the way confusing social life and look at the professional one.
i want to go hide. i am getting hit from all directions with so much stuff. make this decision...well what is it that i am choosing? CLARIFY. you can not take pieces of me! that is why i have therapy!
anyway....
i nearly had a break down from my job of two year. it took a year of therapy to deal with it. i worked at the YMCA in like four different department and totally got screwed over. i saw the writing on the wall and gave my two weeks notice at 3pm on a thursday and then on friday at 4pm i was informed i was already replace and if i wanted to finish my two weeks i would not get paid. then i was black listed and stopped talking to everyone because of the rumors going around. needless to say being black listed meant i was not allowed on the property unless i was a paying member.
well as of friday i was unemployed because my job ran out of funding. then i was informed that i was to attended a child care lunched at....the Y....
panic ensued...at least i had a therapy session before i had to go.
it went fine. everyone, well almost everyone was nice and happy. the CEO sat next to me and our state rep. next to him. the meeting was extremely bleak considering funding is being cut across the board for all programs. you know it is bad when they cut funding for the orphanage....
anyway the senior director of child care at the Y was not happy to see me. it was a little odd my being there. with important people. her facial expression was priceless though. that chestnut hill education clicked in and i was smiley and personable and not neurotic.
so now the focus is on the summer program. last summer i was the arts and crafts, who knows, i did the plans, literal lesson plans, and all the horror floats before me now.
well with the death of the AID team coordinator two week after the summer program ended the TALL team coordinator is has resigned and is leaving for his new parish at the end of the month. the funding for his job was axed too, hence the resignation. this makes me the most experience so now the new director is asking me to do stuff. i have to organize the collage volunteers. i feel like the cheese in the farmer in the dell. i am all alone in the center with everyone just expecting me to step up. problems being i need an income, a job. also can i handle another summer?
i was looking forward to being just a volunteer and able to leave when it got scary.
trying not to panic. help
have i lost my point? have i lost my mind?