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"Really?" Kakashi nodded and she smiled the biggest brightest smile he had ever seen her smile. She sat down and said greetings then began to dig into her dinner. She didn't look up though when he took off his mask and began to eat too. It took Raven all of her nerve to just raise an eye to him. When she did she gasped. Kakashi was really handsome. She giggled and he arched an eyebrow. "What?" She giggled some more.

"Is that why you cover your face? So you won't mess up that cover boy looks of your's?" She laughed a little more. "Aww! Does the fearsome Kakashi of the Sharingan have a wittle fetish?" Kakashi's face pinkened to that comment but looked away.

"No I don't. I just don't want the enemy to see my face. Is that such a problem?" Raven shrugged.

"Who knows. But all I have to say is thanks for doing this." She grinned. "You must really trust me don't ya?!" He nodded and she pratically jumped from joy. Once she settled down again they ate in a comfertable silence until Raven stopped suddenly and looked up at Kakashi. "If you an do this then so can I!" She jumped up and breathed

in and out in deep breathes swinging her arms back and forth in time with the breathes. "What we were talking about earlier," She answered his questionable look. "I'll tell you. The full story of my ******** up childhood."

"You're childhood?" She nodded her head.

"Yes! Well, not ******** up, but to some point someone once said that my childhood was ******** up..but of course from where he was coming from...." Kakashi sighed.

"Get on with it please." She nodded.

"Okay get a seat and get comfertable for what i'm about to tell you is of the utmost secrecy." She sat down on the chair and crossed her legs indian style. "Where did I leave off the story?"

"You said you were finally dying."

"Oh yes! But I never told you that i was sick did I? Ah, from that look i didn't. You see, when I was really young I had picked up a rare and non-infectious diease that our land thought had destroyed long ago. It was from a rare Hibrus Plant that hasn't grown in many decades. When I first found it I thought it was beautiful. The colors combined beautifully and the way the sun shown on it just caught my attention. I picked it up and I sniffed it. The smell was aromatic that I couldn't stop. Here's the funny part. It was the pollen that had the contaiments in it. I sniffed and sniffed, then I ate it. By the way, I was an Einstein back in the day." She shifted a little bit then continued. "Anyway, back at the fight, I was bleeding to death. I had no where to go but the black abyss of death, my mom and dad didn't want that, with the last of their strength the walked off to the mountain of Kyobi, our great warrior that supposedly trapped a monster of enormous power. My mother and father wanted me alive, they asked it for forgivness of what our ancestor did. The monster agreed." She smiled a little and touched the center of her chest. "The thing needed a body to heal me, but there was none to spare, so the monster picked me and enveloped me into its body. Soon I felt new strength and a warmth I never knew and never felt before." She sighed with the memory. "I don't remember what happened after that. The next thing I knew I was in a young boy's arms." Kakashi's eye widened.

"Young boy?" She nodded and smiled even more at the memory.

"Yeah. He was such a nice boy. I don't remember much of him. When I think of him I see white spikey hair and gentle childish eyes. But the only sad thing is...I don't remember his face. I don't even remember his voice. But his eyes, I always felt protected when he was with me with those eyes." She looked at him with a thoughtful expression and smiled. "You know, your eyes remind me of his. In alot of ways." Kakashi felt his heart flutter and once again thanked the gods for his mask. "But they weren't as..empty. They had a spark of power in them. Like a fire, an uncontrollable fire that burned with the passion of excelling in everything." She looked back at him and raised her hand to his headband and stroked it. "It was also then that he lost his left eye...but..that was when..I left, never to return to his village." She stopped there and returned her hand to her lap. Her dinner, a bit cold now, she ate up in a couple of bites. "Are you done too?" He just stared at her.

"What happened? Why didn't you return?" Her eyes became once again watery and she went off to the kitchen before saying something as silently as the wind blowing through the trees outside.

"I wish I knew."

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The rest of the dinner was quiet and Kakashi left to bed skipping shower. He layed there looking out the window, at the moon. It was full just like that night. Soon he feel asleep.

"Kakashi?"

"Mm?"

"What is love?"

The two of them were sitting on the same hill that has always been in his dreams. It wasn't a nightmare this time. It was a clear bright beautiful dream. They were leaning against a cherry-blossom tree, it was early spring, the blossom was in full bloom. Raven was wearing a black and gold kimono for the festival that night, Kakashi was wearing his normal clothes for he had a mission that night. Kakashi arched an eyebrow.

"Why do you ask?" She shrugged.

"No reason. I was just wondering. Today when my sensi was brought flowers from our math teacher, he told her that he loved her then disappeared. She had red cheeks like she had a fever and smiled so softly a the rose petals. The room was filled with hushed whispering but I sat there staring at the flowers. I thought that was the name of the rose. "I love you." But it seems that it isn't. So, what is love?" Kakashi coughed a bit.

"Love is however you want to see it as. Each person has a different idea about what love should be. But if you think about it, love is when you like something a lot. I guess."

She tilt her head to the left in a questioning look. He tried again. "Maybe a situation would help you. I'll use you and me." He put his full attention to her and leaned in taking one of her hands, thinking about a scene in a series that he's starting to get into he said in a husky voice. "Raven I love you. From the first time I met you, to your successful missions, to your excellant cooking, from the way your eyes look when you watch me show you a jutsu, how they calculate everything, I love how your body move as fluid as water. What I love most about is your hair," He took some hair in his hand and gently kissed it. Raven's heart was starting to beat a little quickly. "How black it is, like the night and when the sun shines you can see the stars and constellations. Raven, I love you." He stopped abruptedly and let go of her hand. "Did you get it from that?" She nodded.

"When you said I love you I felt warmth and it rose through my whole body. My heart quickened and it felt as if I was on, what do they call it..um. Oh! That's it! Cloud 9! So this is love? Warmth and happiness?" Kakashi nodded.

"If that's how you like it, that's your definition of love." She nodded with a smile, her full pink lips in a curve that he knew she had no idea that it was sexy. She looked back at him. "What's your definition of love?"

"Pain." He answered so simply it caught her off guard. Her brow furrowed.

"Pain?! Pain is a bad thing! How can something so good be something so bad?" He shook his head.

"I've been through so many battles, love is an emotion I do not need. It's useless." She stood up went in front of him and plopped on his lap, not knowing that thanks to her kimono the split legs on his pants, it was giving him a hard on.

"But from what I can tell, love is not useless! Love can help everyone in the world! You don't need violence as long as love and compassion are there!"

"Compassion?"

"Yes! I know that one and I believe in it!" Kakashi smiled.

"Oh really?"

"Yes! I will show you and this ISN'T ACTING!" She pulled down his mask and kissed him. They stayed that way until she pulled up. "I love you Kakashi! I love you very much! For as long as I can remember, you have been the only boy that ever truly cared about me and I love you for that! You may not know it, but in your own way you are kind and caring and all the things that I want in a man! You are strong and willing. Cunning and Guile! You are every girls dreams, someone who's love that should be shared! But I'm selfish when it comes to you. I want you all to myself. Nobody gets you but me!" He smiled.

"Oh? But you love all my traits. What about my eye? What about my insecurity to show my face to anyone?" She smirked again. Kakashi scolded himself. What was he thinking! Of course she knew that smrik was sexy!

"Your eye symbolizes you so much. It shows that you aren't afraid to sacrafice for your friends. And your face, you show it too me right? Right! I don't care as long as I get this." She came closer again. "You are mine Hatake Kakashi." She gasped when he suddenly grabbed her waist and pulled her body completely to him.

"And you mine." She smiled wider and kissed him, they deepened it. Kakashi felt fullness and happiness, but then pain and emptiness came back when he suddenly found himself running after Raven in a hallway that seemed to have no end. For some reason the name "Raven" was not on tounge when he screamed.

"WATATIGARASU!!" She ran behind double doors and he followed her to find himself in the Hokage's office.

"Team Kakashi, I would like you to meet Watatigarasu Katorin." She smiled at everyone and raised her hand, did the peace sign, tilted her hand so the peace side would be horizontal to her right eye.

"You can call me Raven for short. HAHAHA! Time for the mission!" She did a smoke screen act and Kakashi finds himself in a dark void he looked around calling for everyone when he heard his name being called out. He turned around to see the little Raven looking up at him.

"Are you Scarecrow?! You're so big!" He sat down, happy he has a partner. She smiled. "I'm so proud of you! You've grown so much! Now! Make me remember who that boy is!"

"What?"

"I know I would remember if you would just ask me! I would answer to you anytime of the year! That didn't change when we were younger, It won't change now!"

"Wait I don't know what you are saying!"

The girl ran off calling over her shoulder to a bright door way. "I'm the girl in your dreams correct?! MAKE ME REMEMBER YOU! ONLY THEN WILL THE PHEONIX BE HAPPY!!"

She disappeared into the doorway with Kakashi close behind. He ran through and found himself back in his bedroom. He sat up panting.

"Raven...you are her.." He saw a light flash from underneath his door and a click from a closing door. Kakashi sucked a breathe and stood up. It's time that he told Raven

the truth.

About everything.

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