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and so it all wound down. just as we got a handle and a rhythm going summer nights ended. it was horribly hot and i was very glad that i did not have to go to the park the week after.
now i have to figure out my next move. that is not so easy.
there was a security committe meeting on thursday. sandwhich's which says "this will give and attitude of casualness but we are going to slam you with serious issues." i was right. since the TALL Team (targert area local leaders) is no more we have been merged with the security committe. so half the people there do not even live in the neighborhood. the local politicans, the committe people, bloggers ect. i just sat there wondering if anyone had any idea what they were talking about. there was no wrap up of the summer program with the exception of presenting the Gaurdian Angels with certificates and gift bag. what they did this year was stuff i had to do the past three. yes i was happy not to have to go keep the kids of the wall but still. i do not think i walked away with anything useful except the urge to quite.

well my stray has seriously messed up my laptop. i am on my back up drive. yes i am an idiot. my laptop is like a tooth brush you do not share. yes i was an idiot. besides charging thirty dollars of porn to our cable bill he was looking stuff up. well because he went to some underage sites he triggered a program HAL 32 which messed up my hard drive. it had to be handed over to the police. it also had and FBI scan run through it. there was some really bad stuff on it. the police will be wipeing my drive. i guess i am lucky that i am getting it back. i guess i am really lucky i am not being charged with anything.

the heat broke and the kids went back to school. i am longing for Autumn. the pretty leaves, the hollow crisp air. the warm days and cool nights. comfortors and scarves and my hat. the first hint of cold air i will get my hat and scarves out and be dieing from over heating untill it actually gets cold. i seriously hope that i am not walking around in a haze this Autunm. i want to expirence it.
i kept leaking residual stress. i can not stop. how can you tell if you are having a nervous break down?