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Crushed Today I got rejected in two ways. First, Xander said no. Even if it wasn't to my face and even if he acted normal all day, it still hurt. I've had a crush on him for two years and this was my first move. i feel rejected and disappointed. I'm still gonna be his freind and act like nothing happened at all. But that's what hurts the most. I don't want to pretend. Second, I have a really good guess who Xander lkes. And I know for a fact that she doesn't like him back. I don't want her to break his heart like he broke mine. Of course, he didn't know that he broke it b/c he still doesn't know that I like him. It's not that I'm sad that he said no. It's that I feel lonely inside. I need a guy to talk to. My friends are awsome, but I need a guy. Someone who I can feel loved by. I mean REALLY loved. Not any of my fantasies. I guess the real reason that I'm upset is b/c I was so worked up on the possibility of the yes that I was unprepared for the no. Well, I still have a crush on him but I am no longer devoted to him. I think it's time to move on. I need a guy freind! Not a boyfreind. But a guy who's a friend. To all of my wonderful friends, I love you guys but I may be a little upset this week. Don't worry about me. I'm just really confused about my feelings. I'm pouring this out to you to help me vent them. Oh, and Cat, ANSWER YOUR PHONE! Also, its ironic b/c the girl Xander likes asked me if I like him today out of the blue. She told me who she likes today. The day my love-life gets all topsy-turvey. I'll be okay after awhile though. I just need time....

Posted by: redpandy Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 10:53pm

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Commented on: Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 11:04pm


	aww, addie! i feel lk that too. i used to have a reely good guy friend, but he's gone now. he was mi best friend and sometimes i reely want to be loved in tht special way. but i noe God loves me, like he loves us all.Gods love is a love you can't escape. he loves us no matter wat! so just think about tht and ull be ok! heart biggrin

Commented on: Fri Sep 28, 2007 @ 11:16pm


	Thanks for that pey pey! You really know how to make me feel better! God luves me and I'm happy!!! I know this is kind of selfish, but I'm ready for an earthly love. I really want to have that special love. The problem is that I always think that nothing on Earth matters, but its so important to me! I just need a little time to gather my thoughts!!!

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Commented on: Sat Sep 29, 2007 @ 04:09am


	I know how you feel. I've been rejected many times, and I know for a fact that it sucks. It's really hard at first, moving past the rejection, but it will soon be better. Okay, okay! I'll answer my phone! I just can't go online and talk on the phone at the same time. gonk

Commented on: Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 08:00pm


	addi, i'm really scared. some guy named 'mmm213' keeps saying he wants to 'do it' with me. eek gonk eek burning_eyes eek

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Commented on: Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 01:36am


	Let's never go into the towns alone!

Commented on: Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 01:55am


	Thats exactly why never going to ask him out, im extremely happy being his friend. but i feel horrible for liking him when he's caused so much anguish to my friends even if unintentionally. but my drowning in his eyes and its too late now.

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Commented on: Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 11:20pm


	i know how all of you feel, last year i liked nick and jenny and sam told him, he advoided me the whole summer

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