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Not Emotionally Strong



"Oh.....god....!" Elena whimpered. Kenpachi was on the ground in front of her. Blood soaked all over her hands. "What have I done?...."
"Ela-chan?"
Elena turned around to see Yachiru behind her.
"Whats wroung with Kenny?" her eyes grew concerned she walked next to Elena and discovered the blood all over her hands. Her eyes grew big when the blood trailed to him. "Ela....."she clinched her little fist and turned her teary eyes to Elena. "You killed him!"
"No Yachi-"
"SHUT UP! YOU KILLED HIM!"

Elena jumped up from her nightmare. She did her best to control her tears. Ever since her fight with Kenpachi she has been trying to stop herself from crying. It had been a month since the fight. They haven't spoken to each other in all that time. For some reason it was torturing her more then the dreams were. The medicine Unohana had given her worked everynow and then but most
of the time it didn't.

Her hand was over her mouth. She felt discusted with herself as her eyes looked at Yachiru next to her. She stood up and left the little girl to her slumber. Her eyes lingered up the stairs. To her captains room.There was something she had been meaning to ask him but she was afriad to.

"Whats the matter with you?"
Elena jumped at the voice. He head quickly turned to see her captain awake. "Uh... What are you doing up so early?"
"I heard you whimpering. I couldn't sleep."
"I'm sorry." She lowered her head and sat down at the small table in their living room. She was sitting directly across from him.

There was a moment of silence between the two. He stared at her wondering if she was still upset at him. He brought a hand up to his cheek from the memory of her slapping him.
Elena saw what he did and her eyes lowered even more.
Kenpachi dropped his hand and sighed.
"Captain..."
"Hmmm.."
"I'm requesting that I go to the human world and train with Kisuke Urahara."
Kenpachi eye flashed with confusion. "Why, may i ask?"
"I feel...that I'm not strong enough to be in your division."
"But you are. Whats with the sudden doubt?"
"I'm not strong,emotionally."
"I see." He closed his eyes,then slightly smiled. "Go ahead then."
"Really?"
"Yeah,why not. If it makes you stonger then by all means go ahead. I'll let General Yamamoto know your leaving."
"T-Thank you!" She bowed her head and ran to the door.
"Wait! Your leaving allready?"
"As if I'm going to hang around an a*****e like you all day!"
"Why you little b***h! You should be gratefull I'm letting you go!"
"Well if you wouldn't have complained about me crying I wouldn't be tourturing myself like this! You p***k!"
He couldn't muster anything up to say.He felt something inside of him rip. He lowered his head in defeat.
"Good bye, Captain." Elena tried to smile but ended up having a tear fall from her face. She hurried up and closed the door so he wouldn't see it.

He did.

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Sorry for the wait, I'm borrowing Eclipse from someone and my nose has been stuck to it.