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Time flies. I'm in college now. Yes, at Armstrong Atlantic State University heart I love it here. I haven't made many friends here. Also, most of my friends from before (Paige and Christina, they followed me here...) have stabbed me in the back and are no longer my friends. I'm better off without them. Honestly, I pretty much just used them to have someone to talk to when I was depressed. It's not a good look, but it's true.
Anyways, Brett and I dated for almost a year, but broke up because he was too dependent for his own good. His mommy chose his college, his mommy chose his major, and I honestly felt like I was babysitting the majority of the time we were together. I mean, he was super sweet, don't get me wrong, but just too... immature, I guess. Re-reading my old journal posts made me realize how dumb I was in High School. I didn't love Joe or Jerami or Josh or Brett. I mean I loved them to the best of my ability, but if you haven't really accepted yourself, I don't think you can love anyone else. Maybe I'm still dumb, I don't know.
I'm sure you were waiting for this----- I have a crush. It's honestly the first time I've ever really had a crush. Not to sound vain, but I'm used to guys chasing me around until I decide to date them. However, now I'm the loser who has the crush, and I have no idea how to handle it. My crush and I hung out the day before yesterday and ended up talking for five hours about our lives. I committed my ultimate taboo and told him my entire life story. Something I don't usually do until I've known the guy for a long time. However, he seemed to accept me. I felt totally comfortable telling him everything there is to know about me, but I won't lie, I'm still scared that I may have scared him off. We texted yesterday, but I'm really trying not t get my hopes up too high. I can't promise I'll get on here anytime in the upcoming future because I generally don't get on Gaia anymore, but I'll try to post if anything important happens.