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News update. My mum’s going to jail. Her boyfriend called to tell me and ask if I could find the number of some public defender written down somewhere. I can’t find it if she does have it written somewhere and I don’t know where to look in the phonebook for what she needs. Why is she going to jail?
I don’t really know. Either she missed some sort of meeting/class or had a dirty piss test (I wouldn’t doubt it. Stupid woman)! I need to talk to my sisters if this doesn’t get solved soon. If she really goes to jail she’ll be there for a year and a half and I’ll need somewhere to stay sense I’m a freaking god damned freeloader! UGH!!! I hate not having a job!!! T.T What am I supposed to do?
Why does she have to be so stupid. crying BAKA! MORON! IDIOT! DIM WITTED OLD BAT! UGH!!!! WHY CAN’T YOU THINK ONCE IN YOUR ******** LIFE!!!!! You got fired for stealing and being in back a half hour or more after you were supposed to be gone (even if they don’t know it WAS you who stole the steak. AND it wasn’t the first time you’d stolen from work), you kept using drugs even though you’d go to jail for a year and a half, leaving your good-for-nothing-reliant offspring(me) homeless. YOU’RE EVEN GOING TO JAIL BEFORE YOU PAY ME BACK THE MONEY YOU BORROWED! -sniffs and mutters a little sarcastically- How insensitive of you.
Seriously, woman, I’m ashamed to call you my mother. Am I the only one with some damned COMMON SENSE HERE?!?!?!?! UUUAAAGHHHH!!! I could just freaking slap you right now! Why can’t you ever think, you idiot! YOU DO HAVE A FREAKING BRAIN, RIGHT???!!!! You freaking piss me off! Idiot! Stupid woman! All those drugs and booze kill of the few brain cells you had floating around your hollow head?! Whore! Cheap woman! You never should have had kids!! I should have went to live with my father and gran Ann when I had the chance instead of giving into your whining “don’t leave me alone’ BULLSHIT! I can’t freaking stand you! You may not drink and hit and yell anymore but you’re still the same old annoying woman that pisses me off just by being in the house with me! Damn you!!
T.T I want a ******** job! It was bad enough freeloading off my good for nothing mum! I don’t want to be a bother to my sisters. T.T Whhaaaaa! I don’t want to! I don’t want to, I don’t, I don’t, I don’t! I don’t want to bother my sisters crying I really, really don’t. I mean I was bothering my oldest sister for nearly two weeks and I felt horrible being there, watching her struggle to take care of a baby who’s family isn’t taking care of it and then her two sons who are evil little horrors ALL THE TIME. And Jess has her son to take care of. Gran S. is freaky with her skin cancer and she’s scary even without it. I may be her favorite because I’m quite and she doesn’t even really notice I’m there but she’s still freaky. I think it’s ‘cause she’s an old drunkard. Drunks and old people make me really uncomfortable. I always feel like the old people are going to keel over. ><
I can’t call Gran Ann, I have no cell phone and it’s long distance. And I’m jealous and depressed that Gran Ann is probably more fit than me. I don’t think I’d be able to keep up with her. She’s like one of those energetic little terriers, always wanting to play with you and run around. I’m more like an old hound. I like a little work but I’m quiet and happy to laze around too. I wish it wasn’t winter, I want to walk and try to calm down. I’m so mad and worried. GRR!

-SIGH- Whatever. I’m going to play with my weight set and maybe go to sleep. I’m done bitching and moaning.

Mum called from jail, from what she said it sounds like she was dirty. I’m disowning her. Maybe I’ll start calling her ‘Deb’ instead of ‘mum’, let her know. Stupid woman. D<

More: She sounds like she wants to stay it out so she won’t be on probation and crap anymore which means I need to find somewhere to live and try ten times harder to get a job. T.T I need a job! A job!!! That way, until I save enough money for my own place I can help out whoever I end up living with for a while. I don’t want to go live with grandma Ann, I want to stay by my friends but I might have to live with her ‘cause I don’t want to bother my sisters and I know, at least, Grandma Ann would be overjoyed to have me stay for a while at least. On the bright side I’d probably get fitter staying with her. I hear she’s obsessed with WII Fit. =.=; I’m pretty sure she’s fitter than me and has more energy than me which is REALLLY sad. -SIGH- I guess I’ll talk to Jess. She’d find me less of a bother, I think. Or at least make me feel like less of one. Jamie is sweet and all but I feel like I’m not wanted at her house, and I don’t like her terrible youngest son. SATAN SPAWN!! gonk >< Yeaaaahh…..
So, I’m soon to be homeless, most of my possessions, what bits I have, will probably be tossed out by whoever gets our apartment after us. My head hurts so bad right now and I’m hungry. So I’m going to go back to sleep, you all know what you need to now…
Later.