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everybody that i know pretends to be my friend. i don't pretend. i feel used all the time. they only want me for......i don't know......i don't have anything. i'm not smart or creative or athletic or anything like that. most people like me on here mainly because i dress like sailor moon. if i take the outfit off, no one gives a s**t about me. i'm a horrible friend. one of my friends who i'm close to was depressed and he asked for my help. i was listening to him speak and i was telling telling him something and he yelled me for thinking that i wasn't paying attention to what he was saying and i was. i don't liked being yelled at. so i hung up on him. what kind of person hangs up on their best friend when they need them the most??? i only do things around my house to get something, not to help my mother out. the one brother that i have makes fun of me for being overweight when he's overweight himself. he always calls me gay, and i'm straight. all of them say that gaia is gay, when i know it's not. my family doesn't love me. they all love the middle child. he's a normal child w/a social life. i don't even leave my house unless i go to appointments or i go to the store. everybody in my family just drops everything and caters to him. anything he wants done, it gets done. nobody does stuff for me. they always whine and complain whenever i ask for something. everybody that i know hates me. the one friend i have in real life, i bet, hates me right now, because i have to think about our relationship. he doesn't need a friend who's constantly depressed all the time. i don't like talking on the phone. i feel weird doing it. i prefer talking online or texting. he doesn't seem to care. he says he does, but i highly doubt it. i'm never gonna find someone to love me. i'm overweight, and ugly. all the pretty girls get the guy. it's just not fair. i don't deserve to be anyone's friend. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying
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