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Scar face meets puppy


I feel as though the world I no today is falling apart. My enemies r making friends with my kid sister. I call her various nicknames, like princess cuz she's like one from being a spoiled brat and having a teen girl like rotten attitude. My sister is a gilry girl. I can care less cuz I'm a tomboy. Also we're like day and night. She's sunny and i'm moody. She's the neat freak and keeps her side clean, my half of the room looks like the universe threw up in it.

Scar face is what I call my worst enemy. She did things unspeakable to me and I do not feel like sharing them. Like the scar face in the movie. She's evil, sinful, mouthful, violent, and did I mention sounds and looks like him? She has the attitude down and she swears like a sailor. I don't swear at all. She's not as smart as I am. She's dumb but is crazy as a fox. I think she's trying to attract my bunny like sister into a trap and eat her up and spit her out like someone eating something nasty. Scar is nasty. I don't want that to happen to my sister. She's too stupid to realize who's a friend or who's an enemy. I'm smarter than my sister and stronger than her. I also think I'm losing her to pops. I'm using my watch dog like instincts to protect her . She's too much of a puppy dog to stand up for herself. I think with the more frienemies she makes, the more watchful I am. I think that's my I don't have friends. but I don't need friends from my school because most of them r trash. My sister can be such a two face too. i do lots of stuff for her and she rarely does stuff for me. I try to make her happy and then things go wrong. Like the time i got my bike stolen. I took most of the blame to protect her and she didn't repay me much. that happening still makes me cry cuz I loved that bike and some punk took my freedom away from me. I also never felt so much guilt for it. It was like I sinned. But right now I think if I lose my sister, I'll never forgive myself. I always share everything but now it seems like she keeping secretes from me. Does she even trust me anymore? Should I trust her? The light of my world is fading, I need to make the light into a flame as it once was.