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Why yes, I think so. She says it's easier for me if I'd listen to her.
And if I took the time, to breathe her voice in as my own. Though I want all say, in what I do. Because then I won't feel like my self anymore. which sort of disturbs me.But I know I need her, in the future. I know I won't lose myself, but she is extremely violent. If I let her have more then half of me, I will completely change, and absolutely become something I was trying to not be. I know there's always me, but she is not afraid of hell, and she will kill someone, if I do not watch her. She is so bad a**, but it sort of scares me O_O She's my back bone now. Unfortunately.
So I hung up on Jelly just because she was annoying me. It was the first time, I've ever done something like that. What can I say? She ignored me, and I'm not going to waste my time on the phone, when I could be living my life. Besides, she'd rather play her stupid games then to be a friend. Guess it's too much to have a real friend ;D It doesn't matter to me. She's to stupid to know, I didn't care if she is mad at me. Or for the matter she doesn't want to call me back. I'm glad, haha. I put up with her crap for all my life. It's time for my happiness, now. It's my prime, and so she is her to help me with it. Maybe she's God sent, do I really care? Perhaps. ;D
Along with some other things, useless pathetic things, I need to get rid of. And my life will be about my happiness. For once in a long time. I'll keep all my true friends here with me, and I will reward them with real love. Something that is hard to find in such losers. I'm still alive on the inside. I'll find a world inside myself, and I'll never let anyone take my happiness. I don't care who you are. <33 ******** the words. It isn't about how your mouth is trained to lie, when your really dead on the inside. It's about how your prove it to me before the lies. Or maybe just when you screw up. there is no more room for second chances. Not anymore.
"I want that girl I use to know, the one in fourth grade, I want her back."
"She doesn't exist anymore."
 Pain-Killer 4 Dead Angels · Tue Sep 02, 2008 @ 01:15am · 0 Comments |
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