eh, i've been the same for a while now... happy at some pionts, depressed at others.. i can only be happy when i'm around someone..
My cuzin has been visiting since my last entry.. i've been okay with my feelings.. i losened the leash a little a few times, but not enough to do harm i think... but i'm good..
i'm having a party the 12th, and hopefully most of my friends can come.. i'm still real mad that i never had a birthday party.. then the fact that one of my friends got me a T-shirt, and then now she wears it as her own.. i guess she liked it to much. i forgave her though.
It's 5am at the moment and i'm real tired... i had a boy on Endless Online ask me out randomly a few dayz ago. i got to know him a little, and he said he likes to take it slow... i'll take it slower than he thinks though.. i'm still not ready. i know i'm not, and i hope that i can stay strong, and not ruin myself with my desires.. with anyone..
i can't wait till monday, so that i can work more.. i need the money for my Xbox..
And i'm real pissed at Gaia, i ordered my friends birthday pressent about a month ago, and i still haven't got it! evil it frusturates me.. i'll have to get her something else i sappose..
i also broke my Mp3 recently.. i put it in my dad's pocket while we were on a fishing boat (i went on a trip with him and his shop guys.. my cuzin went too), and when i took it out, the inside screen was shattered.. i told my brother (now in Boston, yayz! whee ) what happened and said i'd have to buy a new one. he said he recently fried his on accadent, with the charger, and said that he'll send it in to get it fixed and mabie sell it to me for cheap.. 3nodding blaugh heart and his is an I-pod, too, so that makes it more worth it!
that's all i can think of.. i'm going to bed soon, and i'm praying i can get good sleep.. i'll post more when i get the chance..
My cuzin has been visiting since my last entry.. i've been okay with my feelings.. i losened the leash a little a few times, but not enough to do harm i think... but i'm good..
i'm having a party the 12th, and hopefully most of my friends can come.. i'm still real mad that i never had a birthday party.. then the fact that one of my friends got me a T-shirt, and then now she wears it as her own.. i guess she liked it to much. i forgave her though.
It's 5am at the moment and i'm real tired... i had a boy on Endless Online ask me out randomly a few dayz ago. i got to know him a little, and he said he likes to take it slow... i'll take it slower than he thinks though.. i'm still not ready. i know i'm not, and i hope that i can stay strong, and not ruin myself with my desires.. with anyone..
i can't wait till monday, so that i can work more.. i need the money for my Xbox..
And i'm real pissed at Gaia, i ordered my friends birthday pressent about a month ago, and i still haven't got it! evil it frusturates me.. i'll have to get her something else i sappose..
i also broke my Mp3 recently.. i put it in my dad's pocket while we were on a fishing boat (i went on a trip with him and his shop guys.. my cuzin went too), and when i took it out, the inside screen was shattered.. i told my brother (now in Boston, yayz! whee ) what happened and said i'd have to buy a new one. he said he recently fried his on accadent, with the charger, and said that he'll send it in to get it fixed and mabie sell it to me for cheap.. 3nodding blaugh heart and his is an I-pod, too, so that makes it more worth it!
that's all i can think of.. i'm going to bed soon, and i'm praying i can get good sleep.. i'll post more when i get the chance..
