around my first entry was a poem i wrote called "Something That Will Never Come"
i have a new perspective, and here is the opposing poem:
My 'It' has finally come, (several times)
I sould be saying,
"thankyou, God, u have blessed me with 'It'!"
but, no, i am crying and wish 'It' never came
I dislike the feelings that 'It' gives me.
'It' torchers me with thoughts
That are only sweet at the time of thinking.
They (the thoughts) are disturbing, and sometimes turn me against my own Blood!
It is shameful,
and i cannot erase them now that they are in.
It is a never ending nightmare!
Now i am saying,
"God, please, save me from this! I BEG OF U!"
but he will not free me of this for a long time.
'It' will haunt me for most of my life.
And....
I am thinkful
The things that It sends me, keeps me from myself,
'It' is protecting me,
Though it is painful..
If i was to be with someone,
I would lose all control.
I would break vows and promoces.
I would break my vow with God and be shamed for life!
He protects me with pain, and suffering.
He knows my weakness,
And uses 'It' for my "Thorn in the Flesh"
Yes, the devel IS responcible..
God only allows him to go so far.
Yes, it is confusing..
It seems like they work as one.
The thing i have luved for all my life,
And that thing loving me back all this time
Would break me, for the better of myself...
And i except the challange,
To move on without 'It',
Like 'It' decided to do long ago..
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i have come up with a few sayings, and put them as icons.. they will be posted on my profile.. but i will tell them to u now, since u might be to lazy to see for urself XP
"Even My Own Love is To Strong For My Own Good" (it doesn't say "own"(the first time) in the icon..)
"Break Me, My Love, So that I May Be Free" (it doesn't say "My love" on the icon, cause i wouldn't have had room then, but it is sappose too... sweatdrop )
"A Broken Heart Covers a Growing Soul"
i have a new perspective, and here is the opposing poem:
My 'It' has finally come, (several times)
I sould be saying,
"thankyou, God, u have blessed me with 'It'!"
but, no, i am crying and wish 'It' never came
I dislike the feelings that 'It' gives me.
'It' torchers me with thoughts
That are only sweet at the time of thinking.
They (the thoughts) are disturbing, and sometimes turn me against my own Blood!
It is shameful,
and i cannot erase them now that they are in.
It is a never ending nightmare!
Now i am saying,
"God, please, save me from this! I BEG OF U!"
but he will not free me of this for a long time.
'It' will haunt me for most of my life.
And....
I am thinkful
The things that It sends me, keeps me from myself,
'It' is protecting me,
Though it is painful..
If i was to be with someone,
I would lose all control.
I would break vows and promoces.
I would break my vow with God and be shamed for life!
He protects me with pain, and suffering.
He knows my weakness,
And uses 'It' for my "Thorn in the Flesh"
Yes, the devel IS responcible..
God only allows him to go so far.
Yes, it is confusing..
It seems like they work as one.
The thing i have luved for all my life,
And that thing loving me back all this time
Would break me, for the better of myself...
And i except the challange,
To move on without 'It',
Like 'It' decided to do long ago..
______________________________
i have come up with a few sayings, and put them as icons.. they will be posted on my profile.. but i will tell them to u now, since u might be to lazy to see for urself XP
"Even My Own Love is To Strong For My Own Good" (it doesn't say "own"(the first time) in the icon..)
"Break Me, My Love, So that I May Be Free" (it doesn't say "My love" on the icon, cause i wouldn't have had room then, but it is sappose too... sweatdrop )
"A Broken Heart Covers a Growing Soul"
