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I have this feeling...this feeling in my guy...could it be regret? I'm not sure...but I mean... *sighs* I'm just unsure. I messaged this old friend of mine...well..enemy now...and anyways...I'm trying to apologise for treating him like s**t all of the time...trying to get him to realise that I am GENUINELY sorry...and I've decided...until I get him back as a friend...I won't make any new ones...it's not worth it. I mean, what if I accidentally treat them like s**t as well...they'd just leave me as well, just dump me off as if I were yesterdays news. Why is it that while I'm willing to give fifth and sixth and seventh chances, I'm willing to give all the time in the world for my friends to improve until I get pushed to stop...that he's not willing to do the same? An aquantince told me that if he won't accept my apology I should just drop it...I should just stop...she said that he wouldn't be worth my time anymore...but really...he's one of the best friends I've ever had. Should I just give up?