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Sometimes I wonder if my life is going to go anywhere. I keep feeling like a failure no matter what I do, or where I go. I just keep messing things up, or I keep passing up opportunities. I'm thinking about getting on the internet less. Like setting some sort of max amount of hours I should be on the internet or something. I don't know why, I just feel like there's something I have to correct about my life in order to be more successful. There has to be. I feel like I have no power, I get almost nothing done, I don't have a job or license, I don't have control over what I wear, or what I eat, I'm not allowed outside. So what chances do I have? I'm kind of thinking about not getting on Gaia for a little while, but I'm afraid that I might have another break down and be forced to see a psychologist for sure. My family never understands me, and I never understand them. We're completely different breeds.