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Last night, as some of you who've read my other posts, my boyfriend left me. Well that was pretty hard on me in itself. Well, this morning, things got worse. How could things get worse, you ask? Try imagining this. Last night, the night I was left, I had stayed the night at my bestfriend/sister's house. Well this morning Callie, my sister, and her little sister Megan got into a screaming fight. I minded my own business and kept quiet and out of the way. Megan, upset, left to go to a friends house. After she'd left, Callie tells me that she'd taken mixed pills. I had heard her with pills but I'd assumed it was medication for her bad knee, nothing unusual. She tells me she'd mixed pills and asks for my help. What else am I suppose to do, I do my best to help her. I was suppose to go to Lewiston for my mother and do some parts returns and other errands she need and take my little brother to his karate training. I called my mom to tell her I couldn't do it and I needed to stay with Callie. Well she wouldn't hear of that. So I called Megan back to the house to look after Callie seen as I had to leave. I had them as best prepared for anything that I could when I left. After I left I went to Craigmont to our mechanic's business to pick up the parts my parents needed me to return. While I'm there, mom asks me what was going on and I was explaining it to her when my dad comes into the office with full a*****e mode turned on and starts bitching me out about how it's none of my business and that I need to keep my nose on my own face. So I said fine, I was just trying to help, I wasn't going to argue with him. He's stubborn and won't admit to being wrong even when he knows it, who would in their right mind argue with him. Well he proceeded to go on and on about how it was none of my business and he kept talking about Callie as though he were an expert on the situation. I told him that he's setting a real prime example of keeping his nose on his own face. Upset with me for my comment, he tells me that I'm to go to Lewiston and come home and even if Callie calls me to come get her that I'm not allowed to go. I told him that it was bullshit for him to try to forbid me from helping my friend who had asked for my help. He gotin my face about that one, yelling and screaming and demanding for me to turn over my keys. He locks up my car, takes the spare key off my car so I couldn't possibly get into it if I tried. So now mom has to run her errands herself and I left, I just took off. Dad forbid mom from leaving before 3:30, over an hour away, and I wasn't going to just wait around that long. I tried going to my Aunt's house but she wasn't home so I went to the Camas Club. I restraunt in which I work and am good friends with my employers; Larry, Lu, and Kathy. I went there, crying, and Lu asked me what was wrong and I told her and she gave me an icecream cone and called my mom to let her know where I was at. To take my mind off of it, I started helping Lu put of more halloween decorations around the restraunt and bar until my mom stopped by to pick me up on our way out of town. We went home to get Michael before going to Lewiston. On the way she told me about how she and dad had fought and that he kept calling her stupid for having stuck up for me and telling him that he over reacted. When we got home I had the choice of either staying home or going with mom. Well I sure as hell didn't wanna be home alone whenever dad got home, I went to town with mom. I've been home for an hour now and I've said but one word to dad, and that was 'hi.'

So much s**t has happened in the last 36 hours it's not even funny. My boyfriend leaves me one night, my bestfriend/sister attempts suicide the next morning with me there, and my father takes away my car for trying to help her. What the hell? I have no idea how I'm to get to work. And I have TWO jobs. What am I suppose to do now?! *sigh* I'm just so sick of life and s**t....