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Floating on this watery abyss
Surrounded by walls.
The dark tunnel, I feel your flesh eating presence
Sucking out my soul and feeding upon my emotions.

I feel like I want to vomit.
This headache doesn't seem to fade.
Your making me do all the goddamn work.
Never do you reach out, but I did.
Though I really didn't have the heart to
nor the energy
nor the drive.

I could see those overdone, cliched dreams of white pickett fences in your eyes.
The Screaming child in the motherly figures arms.
The cherry blossoms dying along with the rose bushes.
The sun draining all color from the scenery
You coming home in a grey cap and an onery expession

How could you think such when we had only just begun?
The whispers in the ear
overdone
those three words
overused and abused
So hollow
so empty

So hollow are my kisses and my hugs
So hollow are my dreams of your cracking face.

You never exfoliated that nasty skin of yours.

I never wanted to kiss you.
The awkwardness of coming closer to eternity
Scared me all to hell.
I would've rather died
Than kissed that nasty mouth of yours.

The old compliments that others so worn out
The word that every woman likes to hear
Made me clench my fists in fury
Raging the fires of war
The winds of defense coming to my aide.
You said I'm beautiful as if we were in bed
But how could I make love to a body that smelled of corpse.

It was like being a necrophiliac,
loving a person as decayed as you
You never took care of yourself
you may as well have been dead.

These chains that surround me as I float in this watery abyss
I suddenly open my eyes to see the mess I am in.
You killed my fire with all this water
All this smothering.
you say your wind, but I say your Earth
This cave you have trapped me in
My wings you have clipped.
But I open my eyes to see my pain
and they grow back.

With my strength, I break free.
My wings shake of this cold, hard dirt
You threw on this dirt while I slept,
But now I am awake
So you better back off.
Or you'll get hurt
And don't say I will feel sorry for you
because For every tear you cry, I will laugh my a** off
You pathetic fool, you thought you could get away with it.
Your emotions will not get me back
For that's what they all say
When they just want to get into your pants
Or use you for domestic skills.

So get the ******** away from me
Find something to obsess over
Like the lint in your belly button
Or the mold that grows under your arms
How about you just Go take a ******** bath
Becuase you ******** smell
something that came out of my a**.
-Tomo