I wish teachers wouldn't have to bring up the subject of college every other day I'm in school. It just makes me even more anxious. I used to get really good grades, but that changed when I started junior high. I'm not a bad student, but I'm not a genius. This makes me worried, because my teachers make it sounds like if I'm don't get good grades I'll never make it in college.
As worried as I am about myself, I'm more worried about my sister and boyfriend. My boyfriend's going in a completely different career path than me and I'm afraid that we might break up after high school graduation. I love him, but I want to see him. I trust him and all, but being apart for so long will be so painful.
And my sister still doesn't know what she wants to do with her life. I want her to be sucessful in whatever it is she wants to do, but she just doesn't seem to take life seriously. Or maybe it's the other way around, and I'm being too serious about this. *sigh* I wish I could be as carefree as my sister.
Hopefully a night of peacefully sleep will help get these pressures out of my head.
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Kodoku na Oujo no Nikki (The Diary of a Lonely Princess)
This little, worn diary, holds my deepest thoughts and fears.
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