Okay, so my good streak of posting frequently didn't last too long. Oh well. The newest things that have been plaguing my mind have been making it hard for me to function properly.
First off I just got home from my college orientation and now I'm so psyched to go off to college. Not only will it offer so many awesome things from really cool classes to every kind of club for any kind of interest, it will also be a great escape from the other drama that seems to follow me daily now.
The biggest part of that drama is dealing with my best friend. She's going to live with her boyfriend, whom she meet on Gaia, this summer, but I just can't help but feel that this guy is trying to control her. He's been trying to get her down to where he lives earlier and earlier. Now he's already bought her a ticket to go down when she isn't even sure she wants to go down there that soon. I just don't like the way things are playing out for her right now. I just want her to be happy, but i can't help but shake the feeling that this will all end badly.
And my friend ((the one who I just found out liked me)) hasn't eased up very much either. He somehow got it into his mind that I hated him the other week, because I was supposedly ignoring him. I just wish that he would stop liking me. I can't see him as anything more than a friend. Especially when I'm still not over Saiyajin. We've kept in touch, but I wish that we could fix things between us. I... I don't want to let him go just yet. I realized that. And I know that we're going away to college, but I... I still love him.
Huh... That sounds really crazy coming from me, but I do. I just can't give up hope. I have to have faith that things will be okay and that there may still be hope for us.
And that's another reason why I don't want my other friend to like me. I feel so guilty because my other friend kept telling me that I haven't even given him a chance and that I'm being selfish by mopping over Saiyajin. I can't help it though!
Hopefully most of this drama will be long forgotten when I'm a few hours away from everything else that's stressing me out in my life. So here's to college, hoping that it will bring me peace from my life that seems to hectic to be real.
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Kodoku na Oujo no Nikki (The Diary of a Lonely Princess)
This little, worn diary, holds my deepest thoughts and fears.
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