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Can you answere somthing for me?
I dont even no if i should be telling you this. But oh well. If i want this person to know i have to find a way to tell her. (and im not a les or a bi. Just to let you know) But i have this friend named katelin. And like we were best friends in like 6 grade. And we were the best of friends. And looking back i can honestly say i loved life. Because well for one thing she was my best friend. And for another, i was friends with Kayice, Katy, Matt. And ever sence i became a b***h. Well became like my mom, everything changed. I honestly didnt try to act like my mom. Its just that. Well. (Wow i dont even no why im saying this But) My mom was beating me alot that year. And i didnt honestly no how to handle it. So stupid me i went to school and speaded romers about katelin. I know i shouldnt have done that. But i did. And honestly i dont know why i even did that. But i guess i needed to take it out on someone. And that someone was my best friend. The person i cared for the most. I was going to tell her about that. But i didnt no how she would reacted. I didnt know if she would go tell someone or keep it a secret. And if she went to tell someone then my mom would probly go to jail. And i didnt want that because i love my mom even if i say crap about her. But i really wish i havent done that stuff to katelin because I love katelin as a sister. (and not in a les or bi way.) But i honestly want to be katelins friend really bad. Like she said we are friends but i honestly dont know if we really are. Because she only talks to me on the computer. But my only friend right now said that she is only talking to me because she is useing me. I dont know if that is true or not. But right now i dont even care. Im trying to act like i want to not like people think i act. I dont want to be the person i use to be. I hate that person. I want to be the person i want to be. Not the person that name calls and like pushes my friends and stuff like that. So im going to try to be the person i want to be. It will be hard. But i will have to try If i want to be kates friend. I mean Katelins friend. But if anyone knoes if katelin hates me, is useing me or wants to be my friend. Please tell me. Because i really want to be her friend. And if katelin is reading this please dont take it the wrong way.
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