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******** yelling. Make it stop.
Im doing the usual, sitting on the computer, play gaia some, reading fiction stories. The next thing I knew, my mom was yelling at me. I have one B, and the rest are all A. She made a promise she would not yell at me unless im doing good. Heck, i'm doing great. Now, she's yelling, YOU ******** b***h! I KNOW YOU ARE HAVING AN F! ALL I SEE YOU DO IS GO ON THE COMPUTER! Does she not see I do essays and writing? I fail to understand her. She's a b***h. neutral
I do not clean up the house. The reason, is that, the mess is not mine to clean. She's expecting me, as a girl, to clean up the house. Why won't the ******** family do it theirselves? I clean up my OWN mess.
That, makes me angry.
Does she NOT know that all she's doing is making things worse? Yelling at me, cursing at me if i'm doing great? If so, then why am I doing all of this in the first place? She's going to yell at me anyways. Then, I refuse to do any work. In other words, I quit. I hate how she pressures me, and expect me to do great. I AM doing great. She just throws accusations at me. Heck, I read faster than anyone in the class. It took me 2 minutes just to read the friggin' essay, and I understand it very well. No offense to some who can't read or write very well. I make well written essays. I ******** quit. She can go to hell, for all I care.
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Here I am, pouring out my feelings in this virtual journal. How ironic. I cried right now, I haven't cried in...a very long, long time. The emotional pain i've kept inside of me, all these freaking years, the pressure, the yells, the trauma... Now, it was the limit of he mental abuse. I cried. I repeated these two words in my mind.
I cried.
I feel light, almost like a huge burden has been lifted off of me. At school, i'm considered cheerful, right? I always smile. I didn't want them to worry. It's my own problem. I was the epitome of an average, girl. Ranting, complaining, depressed, and now i'm crying. The statue that has been standing all these years, is broken.
No, i'm broken.
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