Trust is a very strong thing....how do you know for sure you can trust someone? and I'm asking you.... because in my life I cant trust anyone....the only people that I can think that I can trust... I'm having second thoughts about....the only people that I mite to be able to trust is....katelin,rach, jade, nate,mom,and my dad..... but I have a problem with most of them though....like katelin....I really don't know if I should or shouldn't trust her...only because sence we were in a fight she changed a lot!!!and I do mean a lot.... so like I really don't know what she is like.... I mean I know who she is but I don't know what she will do....and if I tell her something.... and what if we get into a fight again?then what am I going to do? if she tells someone I'm scrud!!!..... and maby I will trust her in the future.... but right now I don't know her.....and right now I dont even know if we are friends.... I don't even know if she likes me as a friend.... I'm thinking she is just hanging out with me because I hangout with rach and rach hangs out with her... and she wants to be rachs friend.... or maby she just feels bad for me....so I don't know.... if she even likes me..... and that buggs me.... so I really cant trust her....only because of that up there....oh and don't get me wrong I like katelin as a friend a lot...... but its just because of that that I cant trust her....and I really don't know if I can trust rach only because honestly I think she will tell guidance or one of her friends or half of the school.... and then my mom will kill me..... ~she will to~and I really don't know if I should trust jade for the same reasons as katelin..... and some more.... like I herd a lot of stuff from a lot of my friends that when jade gets mad at you she will tell everyone everything you told her.... and she will tell more then everyone.... so that's why I'm not sure I can trust jade......and i dont know if I can trust my older brother nate because if I'm mad at one of my friends or if one of my friends are bitchs to me then he will have someone ******** beat them up..... and honestly I dont like vilence.... and even though I mite be mad at them I don't want them to get killed or hurt..... and I defiantly cant trust my mom because my mom will hold it against me!!!! like I told her that rach was being a totally b***h to me and now she is like" I thought you didn't like rach.... I thought she was being a b***h.... so why are you hanging out with her...." and i hate it when people do that..... in other words i hate my mom.....and i can talk to my dad.... but if theres a serious problem my dad will talk to nate and make sure nate watches over me and then nate will tho that stuff i told you up there.... isnt life gay? i hate it...... honestly one of these days im going to comment sueaside one of these days..... and then my life will be perfect only because then i will have know life and then everyone elses life will be perfect to because i wont be there to mess it up for them......because all im good for is messing up other peoples lifes and im sick of doing that..... so yah im sorry for being your friend......and everyone out there im sorry for being a live.........[color=darkblue]oh and to katelin,jade,and rach but that is the truth..... and i had to right that.... but like i said when i get to know all of you more...and hangout with you guys alot more i will be able to trust you guys....and again im sorry to you guys....
lyl......~em~
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