I just want to keep this a secret, but I felt a need to express it, and I know that on GaiaOnline I can say anything I want to because there is close to 0% chance that anyone will read it.
So yeah. I'm feeling blue again. I kind of envy how people can express themselves so well. How they can admit to their interests, say who they are, scream out their thoughts. I wish I could be like them; I honestly do. And I always get so depressed and frightened about things when people say stuff about Anime and Manga. I mean, what gives ME the right to get worked up about it all when I haven't even made up my mind on who I am and what is my style. But when I hear it all, I just feel so- lost I don't even know who I am at this stage. It's not that I'm unsatisfied with the things happening around me, it's just that I can't figure out if the things I love are really right or worth it.
Sometimes, I just can't tell myself who I am. I know my name, I know how old I am... It's just... I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
At least I know that if you had a heart, maybe all these doubts would go away.
Just saying.
Thank you, anyone, who took the time to read to my depressing journal.
Kei Turpis · Sat Feb 18, 2012 @ 10:59am · 0 Comments