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Scattered Thoughts.
Hello, subscribers and passersby.
These past few days have been making me insane.
I've been back stabbed, again. For about the millionth time. Most females and me don't get along, which is why I mainly have male friends. Anyway.. My boyfriend and I have been through a lot. Whether it's between just us two or some others. Again, letting other people involve themselves in our relationship on his end. We're fighting with each other. As we always have.
He's hurting. I want to comfort him, feel his heart beat.. He's a beauty to me. Someone isn't getting the hint that they should stop shooting their shot while I'm in a relationship.Then my boyfriend had texted me on some insecure s**t. He'll do that in an instant, but as soon as I try to talk to him about the (sketchy as ********) company he keeps, he shuts me down immediately, getting heavily defensive.
Anyway, he was disturbed because I talked to that guy the other night "instead of him". I'm not even going to get into that here, but him and I discussed it. He told me his thoughts. Basically saying how he "thought he was going to lose me to someone else". I give him more than enough reason to feel secure, but it seems like he will always be quick to worry about things like this, given his past s**t relationship. Still, I tried reassuring him. Then he started talking about how there are "better guys out there" and I "probably like someone else". I know he just wants to hear me say otherwise. Which I did. I'm a fool for him, an actual fool.
He told me I make him happy, and asked if he makes me happy. My answer was yes. The real thing I wanted to say was that he makes me crazy, but I didn't. That would have been a real s**t show, you have no idea.
I feel like I'm starting to rant, so I'll end this here. These were my scattered thoughts. How are you humans feeling? How was your week?
Nice day, or night, to you all.
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