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I feel like I'm hurting him.

Hurting myself.

Merry-go-rounding.

My boyfriend claims to care about me a lot. Way too much, apparently. I'm being guilted a lot.

I don't let him in.

When I don't tell him things such as what's bothering me, it upsets him. He feels like I am not being fair in this way.

Side note: Someone in the house is yelling at the house, like always. I'm not in the mood for the s**t. I suggest them staying downstairs with that.

Anyway, maybe this guy is falling for me, or highly infatuated, nosy. Whatever. Time will tell whether this is good or not. There are lots of untouched subjects hurting our relationship. I'm not used to sharing s**t with a guy of his type, let alone an S.O. I keep stuff to myself. I'm used to being independent and watching out for myself. Having my own back.

I don't know if any of this makes sense. It doesn't seem to anymore. Too much bullshit happening in such a short time.

I don't want to give up on him. I also don't want to give my all to him only to end up ******** over. I'm over that.

I hope you understood some of what I meant. My relationship may end. It's already too intense.

How are you? Tell me about your relationship. If you don't have one, just tell me how you feel about being single. Thank you for reading.