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So hey, Diary.

Believe it or not, it's exactly 1:00 am right now. There's the SHINee song in my profile and it's been replaying for a few hundred times already.

My foster sis has been calling me at nights since the very days of highschool I can remember. Or rather, I was the one calling her. But that's cuz she gave me missed calls. And usually, whenever I called her, she most of the time has this really sad, croaky voice. I don't know what I really do to her every night that she said helped, personally, I think I sucked. But, Tonight, this morning, things were... exceptionally depressing for her.

This noona is very important to me. She has always been the one cheering me up when I messed up. Despite the small age gap, she sounds very experienced, and gave really amazing advices. There was once I messed up REAL bad, Her words moved me and really brought me to tears. She was the one to wish me on my birthday when nobody was at home. And for the few moments of my life, made me forget about 'her'. Just for a small amount of time. Just that very small portion of it, but it was very nice to actually have a pair of hearing ears. I owe this noona my entire attetion.

So, to hear her voice this morning, she really sounded bad. She told me how depressing it was at school during morning sessions. She has already took yet another step older, advanced another year in her studies, and the pressure was too much that she cried. I feel really bad for her. You see, noona is not like me. She is an average student, very diligent and hardworking. She fools around at times but when she's serious, trust me, the world cracks in half.

She told me "Every day, I kept cleaning the river. But the rain seems to be falling heavier and heavier. No matter how hard I tried, I can't seem to make it in time" She bursted into tears once again. I wish i could've been there to give her a pat on the back and possibly comfort her.

Usually, the things she cried about were her bfs. Noona is a prefect at school. A seriously very dedicated, playful but strict. Her outgoing and playful personality is what attracts most of the guys of her batch. But they always ended up cheating on her, playing games with her. She was hurt, of course. Yeah, she said talking to me was like talking to a girl lol. That was really random, it came out of no where rofl.

Anyway, something was wrong, for sure. Aish... I just hope she gets used to the busy life soon. Hope she'll be okay. Amen.

Sincerely yours,
Ivan Eriol