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March 18
Today is my anniversary with Harrison...and today I don't get to see him and most likely I won't be able to talk to him. But when you think about it...that's pretty predictable.
It's always the days that you're the happiest.
The days you're looking forward to the most.
That's just the way fate is most of the time.
The only annoying part is when it keeps happening for the same reason...but even more so if it's the same person.
So many times I've been let down because he is an a*****e to Harrison's mom and so Harrison wants to comfort her...but...I guess I wouldn't be so ticked if this day didn't mean so much to me.
Six months ago, I had planned a really nice picnic for us. I also took a lot of time and effort in making a tart. It was an apple tart...probably one of the most impressive things I've made. I was so happy...then at the last second...he went to Mexico...and Harrison had to stay home to watch his brother...and I couldn't come over...
Now...six months later I was really looking forward to today. I planned out exactly what we were going to do and everything that was going to happen with Harrison. I was looking forward to this day for so bloody long...there was almost not going to be a today, but I tried my best to get it to come and Harrison tried to understand it should come...and now that it's come...he hurts Harrison's mom and Harrison wants to comfort her.
Agh...I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lonely...so upset. I feel sick again...I should've known that this would happen...but I refused to think about it. I was so happy and so confident everything would work out...and now I just feel like dying.
crying
I really wish that things did work out...
...but things rarely go in a good way.
 Anriazna · Sat Mar 18, 2006 @ 04:39pm · 1 Comments |
